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Perfectionism Holds Me Back
I am admitting that I am a perfectionist. Yep that’s right. I know perfectionism is my driver. It can make for some tense moments sometimes. I am the kind of person who makes a list in the beginning of the day and has to complete the whole list in that day. I work until the work gets done. Once I get interested in a subject, I gotta be a subject matter expert at it. I have to get this under control! Here are just few things that if controlled could change my life:
I am extremely hard on myself. Whenever something goes wrong, I become really hard on myself. It doesn’t matter if it’s due to my fault or just one small thing, I am always quick to beat myself up and feel extremely bad about a mistake for a long, long while. This drives me crazy. So here is what I say when things go wrong now, “Sometimes things have to go wrong in order to go right.” And leave it there….
I have extremely high standards. Whatever I set your mind to do, I always have high targets. Sometimes, these targets stress me endlessly. I may end up wearing myself out just to reach them. This also makes me the queen of procrastination out of fear that I can’t reach my goals. Ask my sister. When I was going to graduate school I would say to her at least 4 times a week, “I better go do my homework because I gotta get an A.” Finally one morning she asked, “Why don’t you do your homework in the beginning of the week so you can be done?” I had no answer!
Success is never enough. Whatever I do, there’s always a greater height to aim for. Even when I achieve X, I want 2X. Even when I achieve 2X, I want 5X. Beyond this desire for betterment, many times I’m just not happy if I don’t go for a higher, bigger goal. This can be tiring.
Yep I am working on this. But I understand this might be a long process. So here is my quote for the week: “It doesn’t matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop.
Peace……
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I can identify with this….working on “ME”
Yeah lighten up and live! We only LIVE once!!!
Thanks for sharing…..This is sooooo ME right now.
Get out of my head, once and for all!!!! Now I know why we’ve been friends for so long. We share the same dementia. Thanks for your good words, once again, Yvette!